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[Oct. 20th, 2005|02:24 pm] |
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| | Something Corporate - Konstantine | ] |
Guess what? Lorena comes this weekend! After trying to figure this out for a while she finally is coming up to RPI. The LXA formal is this weekend at some country club so she's coming up for that. Anyways, this week has been pretty typical. Yesterday I wasn't feeling too well at all. I didn't feel lilke doing anything, just laying down but not necessarily falling asleep. But I snapped out of it eventually. Ok, well, I have nothing else to write.
-Justin-
cause we all need a little more room... |
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| MMMMMMmmmmmmm......... idk |
[Oct. 14th, 2005|03:55 pm] |
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| |  Thinking of you... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | P. Diddy ft. Usher - I Need a Girl | ] |
Yea, so what's up everyone? This weekend is parent's weekend here at
RPI and my parents are going to be here tonight at 11. I wont be doing
anything till tomorrow with them because they are getting in so late,
but yea. LXA has some stuff going on tomorrow and then Sunday is a
brunch so in all it should be good. My mom ir bringing up a rug, two
bean bag chairs, and a bunch of pillows for me. My room is going to be
awesome. We already have my kick-ass stereo, TV, fridge, microwave, our
kick-ass computers, my kick-ass room mate, rope lights, lava lamp... it
goes on and on. I don't know what my mom thinks i need all the pillows
and bean bag chair for but I'm sure I can find some uses for them...
hahaha! I'll have to wait till next weekend when Lorena comes up for
the formal though. LXA has a formal dance where we go to a country club
for dinner and a dance and shit and I guess it's really cool. But yea,
she's coming up next weekend for her first visit to RPI! OMG! haha.
Have you ever caught yourself thinking about somebody nonstop, and you
realize you can't get them off of your mind? That was me yesterday.
Today is our 2 months (yea, I know you're all like woohoo, right?) and
I just wanted to be with her SO bad today. Have you ever been like
that, been thinking about somebody all the time and you have a moment
where you just stop and realize that right then, right at that very
moment, you are totally, completely in love with this person and you
can not deny it or ignore it no matter how hard you try...? It's just
so overwhelming you don't know what to do because you can't think
straight and you are just surrounded by this feeling of complete
helplessness because you need that other person, right there with you
right then and you just want it so bad that it hurts. That's what I was
like all day yesterday no matter what I did and I swear I don't know
how I made it through the day...
Batman Begins is airing tonight at the
DCC (lecture hall on campus). A lot of the guys parents are coming
tonight so we are all going to see it at midnight and have a great
time. Party tomorrow night at LXA! Oh yea, this weekend is going to be
awesome. I have to go do my homework so I don't have to do it this
weekend. PEACE.
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Just let me kiss you forever...
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| I'm Back, Again! |
[Oct. 11th, 2005|02:08 pm] |
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| |  This is the horny penguin??? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nightmare Before Christmas - This is Halloween | ] |
I should make a habit or writing every Monday and Thursday during my CosRev class. I know today isn't a Monday but it's an Rpi Monday because for the holiday. Oh, and CosRev stands for Culture of Scientific Revolutions (it's my elective class). Yea, so I had such an awesome weekend with my friends and family. It was my dad's B-Day Friday so I got him a Dick's gift card because he needs new sports stuff. I went to the cheap movies Saturday with my wonderful girlfriend and saw Four Brothers. It was a good movie and I'd suggest you go see it if you have time. But yea, it was fun being back and seeing everyone at UB and stuff. I'm glad to be back here away from some of the insecurities and drama of home but at the same time being home made me miss summer. Anyone else feel like that? This is a short on cuz I have to go. Cya!
-Justin-
P.S.- I LOVE YOU |
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| I'm Back |
[Oct. 8th, 2005|11:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  HYPER! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I-20 - Break Bread Remix | ] |
Ok, I'm writing this entry because I've been up being bored since 9:30 this morning and Nick and Mike are still sleeping. Yea, I'm at UB and I stayed the night in their dorm. It's cool because one of their roomates is gone for the weekend so I slept on his bed. hahaha. I used Nick's sheets though. Nick got SO messed up last night. He was sick again. I was getting there and Mike didn't drink anything which I totally respect. The girls were here, mainly Amanda Macuiba, Jessi, and Nina. Amanda Jordan left after she stopped by. I don't know why but oh well. It was a lot of fun last night. I'm glad to be back home, between seeing my friends and seeing Lorena, it's an awesome weekend so far. I get to see Lorena again tonight so I'm excited for that as well!
If you don't have middle_man for AIM, download it. Search "middle man" in google and download it. It is freaking awesome. One thing it does is it logs your convos with everyone so you can always look at them. I was looking back at some old convos the other day, and it is really cool to reminice. I have obviously changed since then and things aren't the same as they were, but it is always fun to look back and remember. Like a time capsule of AIM. HA. WOW, I didn't just say that. Yes you did. OKAY! I saw Dave last night. DAVE!!! DAVID ANGELO TRAVALE! He's big, and funny, and just Dave! You can't miss him! hahaha. Last night was awesome. OH, yesterday we went back to the high school too! I had to drop off the car for my brother and Mike and Nick were there to take me to UB and we decided to visit the tech teachers, mainly Cramer. We saw Urbanek and Maroney too! Maroney gave us the histroy of our ED calsses and where everyone is in life right now, and we caught up with Cramer and Urbanek. We established the only two things our class will be remember for is the speed bumps on the access road because Matt McCall hit an old lady going 60 down it last year so they put them in, and scratching up all the safety glasses in the tech lab. This year's classes have to buy their own galsses. hahaha. Well, I am bored again so I am going to go. Call me this weekend. i'll be around!
J Dizzle
mmmmmm, loving Lorena more than anything.... |
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| Going Home |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|02:18 pm] |
WOOHOO!I am leaving for home soon! I am in class right now. I get to leave early at 2:45 for the bus that takes me to the train station and I get into Buffalo at 9:30 tonight! Due to the events in the past week, I am not looking forward to Friday night as much as I was before but I still am looking forward to seeing all my friends and family. I get a haircut Friday too since my hair is longer than I would like right now. I found one of my long quotes I've been looking for for a long time:
"...I feel that every1 should have sum1 of the opposite sex that they can go to, like not a bf or gf but a best best friend who they trust. I mean, who cares for them fully and deeply. I mean, I would like sum1 who I knew I could come to and be with and talk with and just lean on or sumthing, sum1 really close, and like u should have sum1 to go to who will be there for you and can hold you or hug u when u need it and would give u that kiss on the forehead and be like, "It's gunna be alright,". Sum1 that cares about u fully and deeply and that actually loves u, but a close close love, not a lover's love. If every1 had that it would be the best, like sum1 I knew would be there through netime..."
I wrote this a long time ago, like in January, but I still stand by it now. It is just something that has been on my mind a lot lately and when I reread it I remembered just how things were before, and how they are now, and how sometimes I wish I could relive the past. But we can't relive the past. All we can do is make the best of the present as to make for ourselves a better future. I just want to make the best of everything and that's what I'm going to do this weekend...
~Justin~
cuz we all need a little more room... to live... |
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| Why me? |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|12:20 pm] |
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| |  Upset | ] |
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| | Goo Goo Dolls - Iris | ] |
Wow. Yea, I've had a very eventful weekend. Things have gone from great to bad to worse, and it just sucks. I actually got woken up last night at 1:40 by a drunk friend who accused me of doing something and was starting bullsh** again. I figured once everyone went to college that all the crap would stop and everyone would grow up, but I guess not. I guess no one really grew up because no one left home. Everyone just stayed inside their comfort bubbles and went to college right at home. Well, the crap is still going on an all of a sudden I don't look forward to going home as much as I did anymore this upcoming weekend. I mean, yea, it's going to be fun because i get to see my Lorena and my friends, but I don't know if my "friends" will want to see me anymore. I mean, I have done a lot for them. I mean, they have been there for me when i needed them, but now because of one decision that doesn't even directly concern them or affect them they all decide that they are going to treat me differently. And because of one personal decision they think they have the right to bitch at me and cause me problems. the only two things I have had problems with here in RPI have been because of problems at home. Both of the times I have gotten really stressed out have been because of my friends. I don't get it, how they can just turn their backs on me like that, but w/e. I guess they really aren't my friends then if they do that. I'll live, I'll move on, I always do. It just really hurt to know no one really cared anymore and no one has grown up.
Well kind of on a better note, LXA is awesome. We played a high-low football game yesterday and we got crushed. It's where the High Zetas (freshman and sophomores) play against the Low Zetas (juniors and seniors). We got our asses handed to us. The average weight of the Low Zetas was pretty much our combined weight. It would have been better if we rearranged teams and next time we are going to do that. there are a couple Bills fans in the house! Jean and Evan are Bills fans which is awesome. jean's dad is actually from Amherst. It's kewl because no one from school that I've met yet has been from Buffalo so I'm glad to meet someone who is, or sort of is. The AM meeting thing is tonight where I become an Associate Member. It's like a pledgie but I don't so stupid stuff and it's really cool. Well, I'm at work so I guess I will get back to work. i just hope this week goes better and i can look forward to an awesome weekend.
-Justin-
There is some madness in love. I will admit that, but there is some reason in madness as well. I Love You Sweetheart~ @~~>~~ |
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| Too much on my mind |
[Sep. 29th, 2005|03:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  I See Dead People | ] |
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| | Scooter - Fire | ] |
Hey. I'm in my Culture of Scientific revolutions class right now. haha. Paying attention... nope! So I'm really busy for the next couple of days. I have a math test tomorrow at 2 which i still have to teach myself 4 sections of the book and then study for it, plus I have soccer practice for LXA at 8 tonight and clases till 6. Oh yea, I got into LXA. I'm IN! I signed my bid and it's awesome. Rush is over so the alcohol came out and I got some in me Tuesday night. Oh did that feel good. Not a lot though because I had a machine shop class at 8am the next morning. Big party Saturday at LXA though so it's going to be a lot of fun. Ed and Cayle joined too with a bunch of other kids whom I don't know who they are yet. yea, I'm not going to NYC this weekend and I'm pretty bummed out. lorena is being forced to see visit her family in long Island on Saturday so I'm not going to see her at all. I would have gone with but I wasn't invited and it's kind of a personal family thing so I understand. I am coming home next weekend though!!! I am so excited. I get in Thursday night and I am staying until Monday afternoon. I get to see all my friends and my beautiful girlfriend and my grandma and aunt and it's going to be fun. Not looking forward to seeing some people in my household but I'll deal, it's worth it.
I got to thinking a lot last night before I fell asleep. I was on the phone with Lorena and I was thinking about how i was supposed to see her this weekend and how much I miss her and just wanted to cuddle with her and fall asleep with her and I realized the more you think about it, the worse it becomes. If I sit there and get upset because I was supposed to see her this weekend, I'm going to ruin my weekend here. yea, I had some surprises planned for her, but it's not the first time my surprises got screwed over and I've had to re-adjust. I should be looking forward to next weekend and how I'm going to get to see her and all my friends. I used to get upset about some things that happened this summer. I would recall them and get upset and jealous and all worked up about it, but why? Why should I get worked up about things that are done with and can't be changed? Why should anyone get upset about something that is in the past? You can think about it to try and understand the present and what will happen in the future but there is no reason to get stuck in the past. If you get stuck in the past you will never have a chance to enjoy the present and future.
Live in the moment, take nothing for granted, and never regret everything because everything happens for a reason, you just need to try and comprehend what that reason is...
Peace
-Justin-
If tomorrow was the last day you were alive, would you be happy about today? |
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| Heeeeeellllllloooooooooo |
[Sep. 26th, 2005|02:07 pm] |
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| |  Busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blower's Daughter | ] |
So, how's life everyone? Mine is just great! Yesterday I went to the LXA dinner and there were 22 "rushies" there and they said that they are giving out 22 bids tomorrow evening which means everyone gets a bid, including me! Now I just have to decide if I want to join or not. HA. I wouldn't join just because of uncertainty of a few things, but I'm going to try and clear them up tonight. This weekend coming up is going to be hectic. i just recalled at breakfast today that I have a freaking math test at 2pm on Friday. That puts a huge dent in my plans to go down to NYC on Thursday night. Grrrr. Well, I am going after my test on Friday so I'll get 3 days and 2 nights there at least.
You know what I got to thinking the other day? How is it going to be when we all come back for thanksgiving, for christmas, for the summer? How is everyone going to have changed? How they look, how they act, their friends... Will your friends still act the same, still treat you like a friend? Are you going to like your friend's friends? Are you going to miss being in college? Are you going to miss how your friends used to act, how they used to be, or accept their new personalities? I don't worry about it, but I wonder about it, how everyone will act.
Boo for Atlanta!
-Justin-
"...I can't take my eyes off of you..." |
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| TODAY |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|07:07 pm] |
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| | 50 Cent - Just a Lil' Bit | ] |
Yea! Ok, so I got so bored and decided to make one of these online journal things so I could update it from time to time. College is great. Life has been a little rough the past few days for me but I am glad because I made a choice and I feel it is all worth it. Have you ever had to make a choice between something you really want and something else that is really good too? That's what I had to do and I chose to actually go for what I really wanted this time and I am SO happy that i did, even though i feel i lost some friends along the way, or at least lost their trust. i just hope everything works out in the end.
I have made new friends here at RPI and they are pretty sweet. My roomate is awesome and I'm lucky to have such a sweet roomate. We just lofted both of our beds, which we aren't allowed to do might I add, and there is so much room in our room. My stereo also kicks ass over here. You know me and my music. ;-) So yea, visited NYC last weekend for the first time and might I say IT IS SWEET! I am going back next weekend actually. I love how it's all busy and then when you go into central park is is secluded from everything and you hardly can hear the streets or see the buildings and it's just awesome.
Have you ever done something in your life that you knew you had to do and you know your going to be happy in the long run, but there are bad consequences in the beginning? Would you risk everything for just one thing if it meant so much to you?
- J Dizzle- (thanks lauren!)
P.S.~You over there is always on my mind over here, and you can cross your line anytime you want if you wanna come over here... ;-) |
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